The Doctor's Office

Blogging from the road today! Thank goodness for my iPad. I might not ever get anything done. Yesterday I kicked my own butt on the treadmill to the point that I had to blog from my recliner while lying down. I do have to say that it's pretty hard to finish a post when you keep falling asleep! But it's all going to be worth it when my clothes fit again and my horses stop giving me that "Hey, lardass, would you lose a few if you're going to be sitting on my back every day" look when I start to get on. Nobody likes that look.
I spent my morning in the doctor's office having a mammogram. Not very high on the list of things I enjoy, and not a fun place to hang out, either. Sitting in the waiting room people watching, it was easy to pick out who was already sick (those who came in carrying thick folders of medical records and xrays) and those who were people like me, rolling along feeling bulletproof in their day to day life and wondering if the result of this test would change everything. To make matters worse, all of the employees and nurses are extra cheerful. I suppose they have to be to deal with the sick and the about-to-find-out-they're-sick on a daily basis. I also find it unnerving to be in a place with a box of Kleenex in every single waiting area. Reminds me of a funeral home.
I couldn't help but think of my friend Beth while I was there. Breast cancer took her life in September, and I kept wondering if her journey started in the same spot I was sitting in. Was my life about to take the same turn that hers had? I certainly hope not. I spent my time waiting thanking God for my health and for a good report. Fine, I admit it. I believe in the power of positive thinking and all that crap! I'm not meditating daily or doing yoga yet, but it can't be far behind.
As a person who lost her mother to cancer when both she and I were young, it would be very easy for me to go through life waiting for the other shoe to drop. I could spend hours and hours worrying about getting sick, leaving my husband and kids, all sorts of unpleasant things. But I choose to focus on the wonderful things that have already happened to me and those that are on the horizon. I believe that I am happy, healthy, and full of potential, and I will until further notice.